"Love me when i least deserve it because that is when i really need it" - Swedish Proverb
"I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I’m out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together" - Marilyn Monroe.
"Profanity is the inevitable linguistic crutch of the inarticulate motherfucker" - Bruce Sherrod.
"The funny thing is, nobody ever really knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken.. and we wouldn’t even know."
"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself." - Neil Gaiman
"Never make somebody a priority, if they only consider you as an option."
"The world that surrounded me disgusted me, so i’ve chosen to invent one of my own."
"You won’t experience real love, until you learn to love yourself." (There is a few, i literally have a book full of my favourite quotes that i write in)
“Run me a bath, light some candles & lay with me, just you and me, in here. lay here until the water goes cold, until your skin feels old and feel my body against yours. Forget about the world, just forget about the fucking world. Don’t you realise i need this, i just need you to lay with me.”—
Ah wow, i used to get called something new each week. I’ll just explain my main childhood nick names:
"Blondie" - i was always called that as a child and still to this day, the obvious reason i was always light blonde growing up until about high school it started to get darker, it’s naturally dark blonde now but i obviously dye it ^_^
"SailorMoon" - My Mum called me that and i also remember alot of people calling me that at primary school because my Mum would do my hair everyday immaculately, and sometimes in piggy tails… like sailor moon. I was also obsessed with her show and even had her wand as a toy.. Haha
"Thumbeleah" - haha. This is an embarrassing nickname, when i was little before i started school, i used to suck my thumb. So my Dad nicknamed me Thumbeleah, instead of "Thumbelina" (the movie) Plus i loved that movie. He still teases me to this day about it -_-
If time ever told me that I could only have one last thing to say to you, one final plea to try and make you understand how it is I feel, it wouldn’t be “I love you.” It wouldn’t be “this was all pre-destined.” and it wouldn’t be “one day you’ll regret this decision.” Although it would be heart wrenching, I would look into your eyes and say “to love, is to find freedom in it’s truest sense and I would only hope one day you are able to let yourself be enveloped by the full intensity of that emotion.” Those would be my final words of goodbye to you. It is only then that hope will have finally faded away and courage would help me go on. But always know a part of me will say: “soul wants you, heart needs you. For you I was willing to try.”
"God, Eddie," She said excitedly. "Isn’t fucking just the greatest thing that ever was?".. "Sure is," I replied blandly, trying to hide my shock. This was 1943 remember, when women were not supposed to talk about sex openly, certainly not to the extent of describing how much they liked it. But Norma Jean began discussing sex with a surprising openness and naturalness i had never experienced with any other women. Her enthusiasm had an air of innocence all the same, but at a time when sex was considered something dirty, not really a fit discussion topic for polite company, Norma Jean’s approach was something else! I discovered later that a number of top female screen stars had similarly foul mouths, but at the time i found Norma Jean’s sexual precocity, with its dismaying verbal accompaniment, hard to swallow. Nice young men from Midwest certainly did not encounter what was such a vulgarity. My mother would have fainted!
"Can you imagine…" she said, with that air of total innocence, "the greatest thing in life is free – orgasm. All those great feelings are free. You know, that feeling when there’s a cock in your c*nt, and you’re just laying there and like… these waves of wonderful feeling come over you. To me, that’s the most beautiful thing in the world, Eddie. Two people fucking, just reaching inside each other for their souls."
“Somewhere in between all the mind games, lies, and seduction, i fell for you. Somewhere in between all the broken promises, manipulation, and heartaches, i got over you. But i guess i fibbed a few times, too. Remember all those times i swore i needed you? Well consider them lies because, baby, here i am without you and i survived - Lil Wayne XO”—
“And I don’t wanna fall to pieces,
I just want to sit and stare at you..
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation,
I just want to cry in front of you..
I don’t want to talk about it
Cause i’m in love with you XO”—
1. If sleeping was a job, i’d be rich. 2. I have a very creative mind, sometimes i don’t have enough places to store all my ideas. I have a diary which is filled with my favourite quotes and not enough about myself. 3. No matter how many people tell me that i’m beautiful i can’t fully believe them, I’m very insecure and shy. 4. I’m very close with my mum, she is like my bestfriend, i can tell her anything. But i think we clash alot too because we’re so similar. 5. I’m not as close with my dad anymore and that upsets me alot, so I’m trying to fix things. my dad is definitely the strongest person i know. 6. I love peoples kids that aren’t related to me, knowing the fact that i can just hand them back and they aren’t my problem makes me happy, kids love me btw. 7. I want to do Interior Design & Antique Furniture Restoration and Reproduction as a career and business. 8. Everyone is so interested in my hair, and i think it’s really flattering… so thankyou! Some facts: i don’t straighten my hair at all, i let it dry naturally and it just goes straight. I dye my roots only every 3 weeks, not all my hair. I use silver/purple shampoo & conditioner. My hair is naturally dark blonde and I’ve been dying it lighter for about 4 or 5 years now, quit with these questions puhlease ^_^ 9. My cat is literally a person to me, he is the best cat in the world. I understand him and he understands me.. I’m sure anyone who has been lucky enough to have met him would also agree. Cutie pie. 10. I’ve been through alot that not very many people know about, i like to keep my problems to myself and i don’t seek help because i don’t expect sympathy, it’s hard for me to trust anyone when throughout my life I’ve always been constantly let down, although lately I’ve been feeling as if this isn’t the right way to get over things, so i’ll be trying something else. Hopefully everyone will see the brighter side of me XO.
NINE THINGS YOU’VE THOUGHT ABOUT RECENTLY 1. What type of internet should i get. 2. Going back to study, doing a Business course full time. 3. Finishing a Interior Design & Decorating diploma 4. Why does it want to rain all week when i have no one to cuddle 5. My past relationship 6. Love 7. Sex 8. My dreams & goals and how i can achieve them 9. Job hunting
EIGHT WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART 1. Common sense, brains, same sense of humour, has a goal in life and a beard is a plus. 2. Being lazy in bed some days, just enjoying each others company. 3. Feeling content while laying next to someone without having to say a word. 4. Similar interests - art, activities, music, design etc. 5. Kissing like in those movies where everything becomes invisible around you and in slow motion. Aint’ that cute. 6. Someone who isn’t so simple to read, i like intriguing, mysterious and interesting. Not obvious and not someone that i can imagine what they’re going to say next. 7. Is always down for when i want to have sexy times haha. 8. Likes cats, and trys to get along with my friends and family, is polite, well mannered and adventurous.
SEVEN FAVORITE SONGS YOU’VE HAD. Argh this will be hard..
Angus and Julia Stone - All of Me Bon Iver - The Wolves (Act l & ll) Cat Power - Sea of Love Wu Tang - Gravel Pit Cult Of Luna - Owlwood City and Colour - Day Old Hate Sia - Breathe Me
SIX THINGS TO DO BEFORE YOU GO TO BED. Make my bed Turn on my electric blanket Get a drink or go to the toilet Put on some moisturizer Read a book, write, draw.. or masturbate hah ^.^
FIVE THINGS YOU WISH YOU COULD SAY TO FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT. 1. You need a holiday asap. 2. It’s hard to say this but i’m still in love with you and i don’t know why i think i “need” you, i know i don’t… but i miss us. 3. Reply to my friggin email :( 4. I enjoy your company alot but my mind is still off in other places and i can’t control it, I’m sorry for letting you down. 5. i hate that you’re moving away, i’ll even see you less than now. But i love you an awful lot my dear and I’m glad you’re happy.
FOUR THINGS YOU’RE DOING RIGHT NOW. 1. This 2. Listening to The Streets 3. Drinking Green & white tea mixed and infused with pomegranate and goji berries. 4. Thinking of putting on some socks. (Did put on those socks)
THREE THINGS YOU’RE SCARED OF 1. Growing up. The whole marriage, have kids thing etc.. I know i don’t want that whole pre-planned life. 2. My cat running away :( 3. Finding new love and being hurt again
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE 1. Travel everywhere 2. Own my own house, hot rods and belongings!