So it was my birthday yesterday, i kept it quiet… i hid my birthday on facebook so that not every random person could go out of their way just to say happy birthday to me, its funny when people rarely talk to you but they see its your birthday and its just some reason to speak to you. So i decided to hide it. Because “happy birthdays” from people with not much significance don’t mean much to me anymore. You know, the ones i care for deep down. They know the date (some don’t) but they’re the ones i’d rather hear from. Since I’ve been feeling down lately, i didn’t want to celebrate. I just wanted to curl up in bed, drown in my loneliness, eat junk food and watch my old favourite movies. I thought this was going to be the worst birthday and well the beginning was.. But, someone special took me out and he cheered me up. It meant alot to me, and i had a lovely night and you’re lovely. So thankyou, you made my day.. Even though i still feel like somethings missing inside, i don’t think i can be happy right now but i think i’ll definitely be smiling for the rest of the week atleast XO.
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”—
“Well i didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did, and i didn’t mean to get so close and share what we did, and i didn’t mean to fall in love, but i did… and you didn’t mean to love me back, but i know you did.”—
“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love, but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along :)”—